please excuse my random bitchrantventemotion entry. these last few days of high school are proving to be pretty stressful





i've recently become addicted to omegle. there are some weirdos on there for sure, but every now and then you'll have a pretty decent conversation.
i also just signed up for twitter? follow me! i'm still getting used to it aha. help me understand please

everytime someone mentions graduation i can't even think about it. there's so much i want to do, so much i want to say to people that i will probably never see again after graduation. i know i'll still talk to the people that really matter to me, but what about the people i wish i had meant more to? there's no way everything i want to say can fit in the margins of some yearbook page.

i want to tell him that when he looks me in the eye it feels like everything inside me freezes and melts at the same time.
i want her to know that she's meant more to me than anyone else in high school, even if some days we hate each other so much we can't even be in the same room together.
i want him to know that i wouldn't have made it through junior year without him and that he can do so much better than me.
i want to tell him that he's a pretentious buttplug and my original soft spot for him has been melted away by his nasty breath.
i want him to know that he's not fooling anybody, nobody thinks he's really an asshole.


fuck people whose biggest worry is what clothes they should wear to music fest. fuck people whose biggest concern is whether to go to california or florida for the summer. fuck people who know exactly what they want to be! fuck people who find happiness so easily.

i'm going to look back on this entry later and hate myself for being so immature and filling my journal with so many high school cliches. i hate myself for this, but the thing i want most is to watch Twilight with my friend and a tub of ice cream.

fuck my life and fuck fake fingernails

recent life happenings in list format:

- A NERD WON WINTERFEST. hell yeah, who would have thought panty line wearin, emo brick hair havin, over eyelinered nerdy me of freshman year would eventually win winterfest as a senior :] though i am admittedly still over eyelinered sometimes
- i plan on making TPing houses my career because dammit, i'm getting good at it
- i have the best best friend in the entire world
- second semester senior! must not skip must not skip must not skip
- i keep getting locked out of my house. the other day i was locked out so long i had to pee in my backyard. no toilet paper, it was all in pablo's trees and lawn
- i'm designing clothing for a fashion showww pictures later

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forgive me for being an awul friend, if a friend at all. so let's be friends now!
IM me sometime at bowl spontaneous :]

life in list form, because i don't feel like writing

- i am $128 in debt because apparently i don't know how to read bank receipts
- my guyfriend has been beating his girlfriends?
- slowly discovering that high school 'love' never exists in anything less complicated than a triangle
- OBAAAMAAAAAA
- got an F for the first time
- i really really like blue now
- college still scares me! applications, work, and school are kicking my ass
- the need to pee never hits quite as hard as when you can't find the keys to your house



more later. polyps took a bunch of pictures today :]

WORK.

october 21, 2008.

lots of drama



( keep ya love locked down )

things to consider



don't start laundry at 12:30 am
don't wash reds with whites
don't avoid homework until 1 am
don't drink chocolate milk while eating a chocolate chip cookie
don't pop your pimple right before or during school hours
don't run over your phone with an SUV
don't eat taco bell when you're sick

okay so i've had just slight variations of the same haircut for all of high school and i really want a change.

my hair is boring as anything

( advice please? )

i love my co-workers.

frank is fabulous (quite literally) with blonde hair and awesome charisma. kara is a little intimidating, but nice. damian is hilarious and extremely nice. the security guard is so nice and almost grandfatherly? but in a young way. everyone else is so nice and welcoming and most everyone already knows me wth D8

last night was basically 2 hours of actual work mixed in with 4 hours of walking around pretending i had something to do. i was based in jewelry but had to help out with girls clothing and the purses. for the most part everything was easy, but i just gave up on keeping the clearance swimsuits organized.

ANYWAY yeah i haven't been on LJ in forever. echoes has kept me busy :[ the chair has to be finished before monday and i have work all weekend jdfgljfg

i need to shave my legs.

this summer is so different from last summer so far.
last summer i had no job, this summer i have two.
last summer i saw bailey like every other day i swear, this summer i've only seen her like twice? and i won't see her again for another 3 weeks. btw good luck at kenyon bailey!
last summer i slept in everyday and never did anything, this summer i almost never have time to myself.
last summer i was annoying, this summer i'm even more annoying.


humm.
i don't think i'm going to shave my legs today.



work in a few minutes.

few things that i don't really feel like going into great detail about?
1.i got a haircut! friend cut it for me today in class (thank you victoria!) last time i got a haircut was almost exactly a year ago. it was to my boobs this morning, but after a quick haircut in AP biology today it's a lot shorter :] can't really see it in the pictures up there, but i like it.
2. prom was last friday loooots of pictures but i'm too lazy to put them all up
3. I GOT A 32 ON THE ACT WTH?! holy crap i thought maybe i'd get mid-20s, if even that. it was my first time taking it, hopefully i can get a little better next time? though i'm really happy with the 32 ahhhglfg



uhh this is pretty pointless
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( prom pictures! )

there are so many things to be doing right now D8 comparitive book review which is due friday, pre-cal project due tomorrow, spanish project due friday, essay that was actually due yesterday but i'm turning it in tomorrow, and planning type things for friday. so of course now is the perfect time to make a post about my prom dress :]



i got the dress on friday! got the shoes saturday (which are a lot prettier when not being flattened out while trying to balance on the rim of the bathtub. HELLO my middle name is classy. i have no full length mirror) and got the jewelry and things today. the dress is not the most flattering, not the prettiest, and the fake silver jewelry is a brighter silver than the silver on the dress but uhhh i like it anyway :] and uhh the hanger strap thing is hanging out OH WELL shh. i love the necklace, though you can't really see it in the picture. i'm probably just going to leave my hair down and curly like it is in the picture, though maybe i'll actually do something fancy to it. Depends on the money situation on friday and whether or not my friend's mom who works at Gould's can schedule me in.


uhh so nobody cares about prom but i have nothing else to talk about 8D this week is going to be suuuper busy. have to balance major school assignments, boyfriend things (his birthday is the same day as prom..), and prom stuff. i will be so glad when i'm leaving school for prom on friday SGHLFDjgh

WE WERE SO CLOSE

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if we had just made the freethrows at the end of the second half

aauudigsfdlg :[



well.

boredom inspired me to take some pictures of my temporarily clean room for ourbedrooms, so i figured i'd put the pictures here too.



( grant my last request and just let me hold you )

this is probably my 600th 'sorry i haven't updated in forever!' type post. but uhh, redundancy aside HELLO i haven't updated in forever 8D
can't say there's any real reason why i haven't been around. this is mostly because i have actually been around ahaha. i just haven't been posting/commenting. THIS IS CREEPY but i'm so used to lurking everywhere i go on the internet, it's weird actually.. participating in stuff. eheheegssgg

to make up for lack of any real substance here is something i'm drawing?:

something we're drawing in art class right now. there are 234657 million mistakes but shh. salire is drawing the same thing too~ but she sits where i can't see her paper so i can't brag about her neverending amount of amazingness, though i assure you it exists and is indeed quite endless.
btw art teacher chose the set-up, i am not a big skull/skeleton person.

the next two months IRL are going to suck :[ ACT, SAT, three AP exams, and 6 final exams. HOWEVER, mixed throughout are prom and music fest so hopefully that will lighten the mood a bit? aha
speaking of tests, i have an apush test tomorrow over two chapters, one of which i haven't read like half of. it's 11:17 now and i haven't even started studying.. la la la

w-w-wth do people write about adldkjghDJGDfg. this is why i don't update!
actuallyi'mjustlazy
uhhhhhhhhh

oh btw
bowl spontaneous (11:26:08 PM): spell redundancy
SmarterChild (11:26:08 PM): It's getting really tiring talking to you.

smartchild is refusing to define or spell words for me now :[ i guess now i have to use dictionary.com....

dammit
i broke your brain too
now i'm an even shittier friend

i'm a crappy friend and a crappy person
i really am sorry
maybe you won't have to worry about it for long, cause idk what i'm supposed to do
i'm sorry ;__;

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please don't hate me forever..

just putting up a small entry while i have the time..

i don't know if i ever posted about the house drama that went on couple months or so ago? i'm too lazy to look, but basically i had to move in a really short period of time. luckily we got a loan and the whole thing disappeared and we thought we were going to get to stay here. BUT since the housing market is so shitty right now, they added some extra requirements for the loan at last minute and since we can't meet those requirements, we have to leave within the next four days. that means packing up and moving everything unless we want it out on the lawn monday morning for everyone to see.

i get bored easily, so i'm excited about living in a new house, but having to do it so fast is really stressful. it's also just my luck that i have to work every single day that we have to move. 5-9 today and tomorrow, 3-9 on saturday, and 5-9 on sunday. tomorrow is also the last day of the six weeks grading period, and i have two big tests that i am NOT ready for at all. i have to rewrite the DBQ that i lost because apparently i didn't save it dglzsdjgg and i still have to finish that damn painting. BASZFGSFG

no little sleep tonight!

- - - -
for my own use, feel free to ignore it:

work 5-9
read and study for APUSH 9:30pm-11:30pm
read the crucible and do the questions 11:30pm-1:30am
finish DBQ 1:30am-2:30am?
finish painting 2:30am-3:30am?
sleeeep 3:30am-6:00am
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studying for APUSH will probably take longer than that because i have to catch up on so much, but hopefully english won't really take that much time and it'll all balance out. now i have about 4 hours to pack and clean until i have to go to work..

wish me luck! @__@

it just took me 10 minutes to realize that the song i have on repeat has wooshy wind type sound effects and that the rain was not, in fact, blowing my house down.
i'm not used to higher quality headphones hokay :[

baileyyyy/loser_no_justsu has no internet this week and she's not answering the phone for whatever reason, so my life is of course devoid of any real purpose. i could be studying for APUSH, but i think i'd rather wallow in self pity or eat some taco bell.

I HAVE A JOB jfsgzdfkg. my first day as a McSlave in a wal mart is tomorrowwww~ hopefully india's mom will let her work one weekday so she can train me. ee, i'm excited even though i know i'll end up hating it after 15 minutes of ringing up orders, getting them wrong, and having to deal with mean customers.

oh, completely random BUT new DBSK/THSK/whatever PV?! forever love. i sortof abandoned the dbsk fandom for a while becauseee they haven't been as pretty their music hasn't really been to my liking lately. 8D plus jaejoong annoys me more and more with each new release. bahadsglg BUT I'M TRYING NOT TO HATE HIM AS MUCH i swear. uhh point? oh yeah, the video. i like it~ very.. japanese if that makes sense at all. the fact that it's a japanese pv might help. ANYWAY; sometimes the song seemed a little empty to me, but it's okay. i might grow to love it after listening to it a little more. alsoo a) WHAT THE HELL YUNHO, GTFO OUT OF JAPAN. your hair is never good in japan. and b) more yoochun time plz ;__; he hardly got any from what i remember. WAY TOO MUCH JAE jdglzfdjg


uhh none of this made much sense and i'm just bored even though i have plenty to be doing. uh.. >__>

byebye 8D



uhh i think my external harddrive just died.